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  A Matter of Fate

  Heather Lyons

  To Jon, with love.

  Copyright © 2012 by Heather Lyons

  http://www.heatherlyons.net

  A Matter of Fate

  Cerulean Books

  ISBN: 978-0-9858653-0-6 (Mobi)

  First Edition

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  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual person, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Cover Photograph and Design by Carly Stevens.

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  Table of Contents

  Part I

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Part II

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Part III

  Chapter 45

  Chapter 46

  Chapter 47

  Chapter 48

  Chapter 49

  Chapter 50

  Chapter 51

  Chapter 52

  Chapter 53

  Chapter 54

  Chapter 55

  Chapter 56

  Chapter 57

  Chapter 58

  Acknowledgements

  About the Author

  Part I

  Chapter 1

  I am a chronic daydreamer.

  Not so much because school bores me—in fact, a number of my classes are pretty interesting. No, I tend to daydream about escape routes. Places to run to when the inevitable, predetermined outcomes of my rigid life leave me no other choice. If it’s possible, even in the tiniest way, just how would I break away from what Fate and family has set before me?

  Florence is currently my favorite spot to imagine disappearing in. It’s a city of impossible beauty and history, one I’ve longed to explore. Maybe I’d become an artist there— not that I’m artistic by any means, but maybe I’d be inspired to be something new. Different.

  There’s also the possibility of New England. My parents took me there once when I was little, the only time I’ve ever been outside of California. My father went for work, and while he was busy, my mother drove me to a number of little towns running up and down the coastline. One particular small city in New Hampshire is rooted in my memory, where flowers practically raced in bursts of color straight to the ocean’s edge. It was incredibly charming, the perfect sort of place to go and be someone—anyone, really—who isn’t me.

  Are you kidding? snorts a little voice in the back of my mind. C’mon, why pick these places, when there is a much better place for you, and you know it?

  Inwardly, I groan at the thought. My conscience has always been far too opinionated.

  I move on, wondering what sheer anonymity would be like—to simply be a girl in a nondescript place, serving pancakes and mugs of coffee to weary travelers on long journeys. The land would be flat and golden as far as the eye could see, and driving through it, with the windows down, I’d be able to smell sweet grass in warm air.

  And there’s the far north, where the Northern Lights illuminate the sky. I’d be speechless upon seeing them for the first time, standing in snow while gazing upon ribbons of color streaking across the stars. I wouldn’t have to be anyone there, either. I’d be just another person, in another small town, making my own choices.

  I don’t bother looking up when the classroom door creaks open, because I’m still imagining those Northern Lights, still wondering how liberating it’d be to feel so small and insignificant for once. For as long as I want.

  A voice breaks through, though. One impossible to ignore. “Excuse me,” it says, “I’m new to the class.”

  My entire body freezes, all except my heart, which goes berserk. Because I know this voice, and this can’t be real.

  He’s not real.

  The ground under me shifts. It’s like an earthquake—not the rolling kind, but the jarring sort that comes out of nowhere, hits you hard, and then disappears just as quickly. The kind that leaves you stunned and wondering if it happened at all, it moved so fast. All I can do is reach out and grip the edges of my desk and pray I don’t fall out of my seat.

  Because it’s not an earthquake. It’s a shift, and I’m the only one in the room who can feel it. A quick glance once the ground settles confirms this. Everyone is working, talking quietly to one another, or watching the front of the room. There are no signs from anyone that anything had just happened.

  But something did.

  And he’s standing in front of the classroom next to Mr. Snook.

  I blink a few times as I stare at him, trying to determine if I’m actually awake. Every time I open my eyes, though, he’s still here. Oh my gods. He’s here.

  The guy I’m staring at is tall, athletic, and quite tan, with blackish hair and eyes so clear, so blue, they replicate a cloudless sky. I should know—I’ve stared into them often enough.

  A shy smile creeps across his gorgeous face, creating a dimple in his left cheek as he hands Snook a piece of paper. A textbook is passed over and he’s pointed off towards an empty seat. The class explodes in whispers when he sits down; everyone blatantly stares at him. It’s obvious he hears it all, because a faint pink stain tinges his cheeks. His longish hair shields part of his face, but it doesn’t matter. We’ve all seen enough of him to continue ogling.

  From behind me comes, “Hot. So hot!” Several girls nearby giggle in agreement.

  “Math, people.” Snook taps the board in irritation. “Gossip on your own time.” The reprimand quiets the majority of the class, but the girls behind me text furiously back and forth, their fingers flying across keyboards.

  It’s hard, but I tear my eyes away from the boy, shocked. I stare blankly at my book, unsure what to do.

  How many times had I imagined this scenario before? Too many to keep track of, that’s for sure. How can this be real?

  Snook’s voice resumes its familiar drone at the front of the classroom, but in the confusion of what’s happened, I’m unable to put meaning to any of his words. They blur together in low sounds, like the teachers in Peanuts cartoons. I ought to pay attention, what with a test coming up, but I ca
n’t.

  Not with him here.

  When I look over at the new boy again, the ground shifts for a second time. He’s working on some equation Snook put on the board, one I haven’t attempted, thanks to being shell-shocked and all. But then he reaches out and grabs the sides of his desk, like he’s steadying himself. Like he somehow feels the shift, too. Black hair spills down across his eyes as he takes a deep breath, hiding everything but a small, knowing smile.

  He’s sitting by the windows, doing math—in my classroom! He’s no daydream, no figment of my imagination—although for many years he’d been exactly that.

  I realize I’m staring when his blue eyes lift to meet my green ones. A jolt of electricity zaps through my body, all tingly, with promises of familiarity and excitement rolled into one. We stare intently at one another for a good fifteen seconds until a girl next to me asks to borrow a pencil. My eyes jerk back towards my desk and I mumble an incoherent apology. It’s just long enough of a reprieve for me to begin hyperventilating.

  Get a grip on yourself! the little voice barks. You’re going to pass out!

  The pencil in my hand snaps, driving a splinter deep into my palm.

  “Chloe?” Oops. Snook is talking to me. When I merely stare back, he tries, “Your answer, Miss Lilywhite?”

  Unable to do anything else, as I have no idea what problem we’re even on, I surge, stretching my mind out to someone nearby to find the answer. I land on some guy who’s in the thralls of remembering a hot and heavy make-out session with his girlfriend rather than focusing on math, so I’m forced to flip through a number of graphic images before finding what I need.

  I hate cheating, hate using anything other than my intelligence for schoolwork. This explains why I’m sitting in basic math, rather than AP Calculus like the Cousins.

  The moment I find the answer, I pull myself out of the guy’s mind, feeling dirty just having his thoughts mingling with mine. Eww. “It’s X = 2y + 79z.”

  Snook moves on to the next problem and victim, as if there’d never been any pause at all.

  Ugh! I’d gone nine months without cheating, something I was exceedingly proud of. The Cousins heckle me mercilessly about it, saying it’s stupid to not use my gifts while in class. But I’ve held steadfast in my belief that school is a place for intelligence, not Magic.

  Also, my hand is throbbing. Picking doesn’t help—the splinter is driven even deeper by my efforts. And now I’m bleeding. Great.

  When the class bell rings, most everyone packs up quickly so they can get to lunch, but the girls behind me are back to discussing him, clearly infatuated with his looks.

  As for me, I’m still dazed with disbelief before realizing I should pack up, too. The pause is just long enough to notice Snook motion the new guy up for a quick conference. He walks to the podium with smooth, graceful motions that exude confidence.

  I can’t hear what Snook is asking, and this only exacerbates my curiosity. I try listening as long as possible until it’s grossly apparent I’m sticking around out of nosiness. At least I’m not alone. All the girls behind me are doing the same.

  I force myself to go to the door, but before I can walk through it, the urge to look back at him is irresistible. Despite Snook still talking, he looks directly at me. That dimpled smile I’ve always adored crosses his face, and I go lightheaded. When our eyes connect, a flood of memories rush through my mind, vivid as they were on the nights they were created.

  He raises a hand and rakes it through his dark hair. A silver ring glints on his right thumb.

  Not silver, reminds the little voice. Titanium.

  I used to love playing with that ring, twisting it round and round on my thumb. There was an engraving on the inside, but in the haziness that often comes with memories, I can’t remember the words. Completely freaked out now, I hurl myself into the hallway, smack into Cora.

  “Hey!” She grabs my arm to steady me. “What’s the rush?”

  I can’t help but look over. He’s regarding me with an oddly frustrated expression. Blushing, I shove my Cousin out of the door’s line of sight. “I’m just glad math is over.”

  Before she calls me out on my obvious lie, I stick my hand out. When she gently touches my hand, the splinter slides out along with the pain.

  She eyes me critically. “Those shifts last period. You have anything to do with them? I’m thinking yes, as you’re the only big fish in this small pond.”

  I nearly stagger, forcing her to detour us toward the nearest set of lockers. Concerned, she surges into my mind, flipping through the last period’s events. She finds the shifts easily, but doesn’t recognize the reason behind them. A squeeze to my shoulder indicates a need for better info, so I reluctantly push forward a memory a little over a year old to the forefront of my mind. Cora watches it silently, her fingers twisting her magenta-dyed hair. When she signals for more, I tentatively release a couple of incomplete memories from various time periods over the last decade.

  “Did you see him? In my classroom?” I whisper, pressing myself up against a locker. My long hair feels sticky against my neck. “Was he real? I’ve gone insane, haven’t I?”

  “Yeah, I saw him. He was definitely hard to miss.”

  I don’t know what to say. I’m so freaked out she puts her hand on my shoulder to calm me down. Thank goodness Cora is such a talented Shaman. Her Magical healing abilities have always been able to soothe me like no pill ever could. She’s also the closest thing I have to a sister, despite the fact we’re only loosely related at best and refer to one another as Cousins.

  “Tell me everything,” she demands. Cora’s like that. She’s always demanding one thing or another. “Start with why this is the first I’ve ever heard of this dude.”

  I’m not ready yet to share the true beginning. No, those memories are mine. So I began where I can—with the impossibility of the situation. “He’s real!”

  She gets the look on her face that means she’s trying not to shake me. “Okay, but just exactly who is he?” When I don’t answer, she presses, “Let’s try something simpler. What’s his name?”

  I say it out loud, for the first time, in a really long time. “Jonah.”

  Jonah is here.

  “Alright,” she says, shooting the guy whose locker I’m pressed up against a dirty look and an order to get moving. “Where’s he from?”

  I want to laugh at the absurdity of her question. Where’s he from? I can just imagine her response if I told her the truth.

  “Chloe, how can I help you if you don’t actually tell me anything? So far, all I know is that some guy in your math class triggered two shifts and caused you to go into shock. I don’t recognize him, and you’re making things considerably more confusing by repeating things like, ‘Is he real? Did you see him?’ after very clearly showing me memories you have of the two of you together.”

  “He’s not real,” I whisper.

  She looks at me like I’m insane.

  “I always wished he was, but even I couldn’t make him real.”

  “Babe, I saw him. He’s real.”

  But I shake my head over and over again, forcing my brown hair to go flying. Because Magic is real. Dreams are not.

  And I’ve learned that one the hard way.

  Chapter 2

  Cora and I navigate our way past the crowded food lines in the cafeteria to our normal table, finding all of the usual suspects already present. Meg and Lizzie scoot over to make room for us. Alex barely glances up from his book, murmuring, “Ladies,” as if using our names is a chore.

  These three are considered Cousins, too, although we share no blood relation. The endearment is more of an honorary one. And the other students at the table aren’t relatives. They’re people we hang out with while hiding from them who we really are. Because what none of the others know is that we Cousins are part of a race of people called Magicals. Our kind is responsible for influencing the course of events within our world and beyond. According to legend, M
agicals have been around since the beginning of time, charting courses for the civilizations they populated. All of the major events which have occurred over the history of the Earth can be traced back to Magicals. That’s not to say Magicals rule the world, though. We’re merely the cause of an event. The effect is what society and the people within choose to do with it once it’s begun.

  While our existences have been mostly kept secret, there’ve been a number of legends created around us. Early peoples thought of us as gods and built temples to worship us, others called us angels. During other time periods, our kind were targeted as witches, demons, and sorcerers. The need for secrecy only compounded over the millennia, until a few hundred years ago when it became expressly forbidden to reveal our existences to any non-Magical.

  Even more guarded is the fact that there is more than one plane of existence. Faerie tales and legends over the years have hinted at what is really truth, but Magicals work hard to keep the nons, or non-Magicals, of the various planes believing the stories are simply byproducts of fantastical imaginations.

  I haven’t yet been to any other plane of existence other than my own, which my father taught me early on to know simply as the Human plane, as that’s the species in the majority. There are seven planes in all, filled with nons and Magicals alike—Elvin, Goblin, Dwarven, Gnomish, Faerie, and Human, all linked to a central plane which functions as the Magicals’ home base.

  I’ll be going there in the summer, perhaps never to return back here again.

  There aren’t a lot of us, fewer every year despite our kind being found in every species from every plane. There are probably 250–300 Magicals currently spread permanently across this plane for work, clustered in different pockets—others come and go thanks to more transient jobs, being based in the aforementioned central plane. Magicals blend in with the nons on their planes—you’d be hard pressed to tell if someone is a Magical or a non without surging or witnessing their craft in motion.

  One time, when he’d been feeling particularly generous with his knowledge, my father explained, “Our family is comprised entirely of Magicals. That’s how we manage to survive. We only live with our own kind—and by kind, I do not merely mean Human Magicals. That’s why there are some of the other species here, even if in hiding.”